Waiting for the call...

Everyday,,, every time,,, I always have this strong believe that I am meant to do something big,,, something beyond “me”,,, taking the step out of the ordinary,,, Seeing life in a bigger perspective, in a complete different angle…

Why? I don’t know… perhaps because I’m surrounded by extra ordinary people in my life,,, people who seeks the secret of life,,, the secret of universe,,, trying to answer the mystery of what’s beyond common knowledge.

I have once read a book (it’s either one of these book “the Celestine prophecy” , “the 10th insight”, and or “the shambala” à they are continuation of each other) they are amazing books really.
Well one part of the book says that there are reasons why we are born in the family we are now. We actually choose them because we wish to develop into someone we are desired to be. With all the family background, the learning, the conflict, all.

My mom is one of the most “aware” and “awake” person in life that I have ever met. I have grown watching, learning, discussing great things with her. She has a very high curiosity about life, and universe. She’s interested in anything about life. Whether you want to discuss it from spiritual side, from science side, from religion side, from anything. She collects books that sometimes you just don’t understand what it’s all about. She just never stops.

So basically she gives me all the influence of being curious. Curious of trying to find “me” in the middle of the universe. The thing is I don’t know if I’m in the right path now. Am I giving enough effort? Am I walking to the right way? Am I starting what I really should start? Or did I missed the call?

Something strong has grown in me,, really,, because people like my Mom, keeps showing their faces in my life. More and more. Each people have different ways to answer their questions, and a total different “faces” with my mom. But basically they are all the same. People who fight to keep their awareness up high. And keeps on awake. Just stay awake. Never fall a sleep. Not again.